I Had Forgotten This

I couldn't recall this time for the efforts I made to forget it all. Back when my wrists had few bracelets and nothing to hide. When I engraved JNRF onto my ankle as my first pin poke ever. When we were no longer together but the feelings still there. When he was my friend and still cared. When we would play the synth, and drink pepsi and be fine. When I was a horrible person who never thought about my actions affecting others. When there was only one person I could be bare infront of. When my family was fine. When my sister lived at home. When I still had a desktop computer. Back to the time he had hair and I wanted mine off. When I didn't care how i looked. Before I ever considered wearing makeup. When I was never sick. My body was only 75lbs heavy. When I was only 5'1 feet tall. Back when my best friend was an weed smoking Angel. When my body was still clean of toxins. My organs were fine. My accent was strong. I couldn't differ "my" and "me." When I thought coffee was nasty and drank tea daily. The time I had gourmet ginger snaps from home mailed to me. When Henry Cee still missed me.

Did I forget this because of what the past had done to me? Or did I forget this for what I had done Wrong?